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had a great day

2009-03-24T23:15:00.000+08:00

get to meet up with yiling todAY...it was fun love it...lol

whatever

2009-01-04T15:10:00.003+08:00

going back to sch tml..there goes my holiday. *sign* gonna work hard for my study and look for a part time job. i need money, i want to buy lots of stuff!~ hee..a new year a new beginning! though it never cross my mind tt i am only a passerby in your life after so many years of friendship. all the ups and down we went through are all history tt will never be discover. what you see in your eyes now is only them and i am the past. i am tired of taking initiative all the time, all the cherish to you has never been seen though you claim you did. all the tears and my love to you shall remain in 2008. however, i will still be looking forward to hang out with you. if you still contact me. best in 2009 to fish and shatec frens. love you guys hee...cant wait for sep..

friends?

2008-12-20T14:42:00.002+08:00

Meaning of Friendship?

Lies
Back stabbing
Gossips
Betray

i am so sick of it! NOt going alone just said it. Dun wan to meet just say it. What is the fucking Problem with all of you. Just face it like an adult! Y avoid who and who, SPELL OUT YOUR FUCKING PROBLEM. BE HONEST. If not just accept how a person is if you all dun wan to say it. come on! we are all frens where we hardly get back together. isn't cherish is what we should do? and girl y are you behaving like tt too? being dishonest, crabbie~so much of a company thing. both of you just dun tally. i am seriously pissed off cos i care and cherish every single one of you! i hate to see our friendship like tt. REBECCA, YILING, IRYNN, RUI FEN, SHARON AND VIVIAN. really hope every misunderstanding is clear between us.

with love and anger! oppps :X

results~

2008-12-16T18:10:00.003+08:00

yeah! i am so happy! i passed all my subjects. A relief for me!~phew...i thought i would repeat 2 subjects but guess my luck is returning. happy happy happy..christmas is coming and i cant think of anything to get for my beloved bf and am curious on how my gfs is going to celebrate christmas. I really got no mood to celebrate christmas this year or am i excited about the coming year. Need to boost the mood in me. oh and i accidentally deleted my old blog, stupid me! well all the best to me gfs! signing off am sick again. is pissing me off, seriously.o

sorry.....

2008-12-13T15:01:00.003+08:00

hehe...finally done my blog...although there is still some problem but who cares..i done my best. is a sat today. where is all my girlfriends? so sad..being abondon by them..the saddest is my darling. change of heart..i am so speechless!!! sign..drifting away!! faded.....

cherish you!

2008-07-28T20:42:00.004+08:00

after hearing a guy from my sch is going to pass away. i promise myself i will cherish my baby more and of cos my frens and family! everything is so unpredictable, so live ur life to the fullest every single day. and i have been thinking what will i become if i lose the happiness i have now. will i be able to stay so strong? can i be face it? i cant believe my life is just so perfect now. is just too perfect to be truth! i cant denied i am scare now. scare of losing everything i have now cos my life have not been this smooth before. i got all my frens love and care, a chance to study again, my mummy love and a nice bf! just like a dream...anyway i freak out abit during my presentation today! omg...and ya i pause abit too...but should be ok. finally return a bday meal to my baby on friday. glad that he enjoy his meal.

(my baby with his food)

look at his happy face i feel so happy too! lol did i mention we had our meal at the ship restaurant? not bad can go try...hee! seriously i dunno what i see in this guy tt i can give up my single life which i have been enjoying alot. hmmm.. he must have add sth to made me fall for him..lol but glad tt i found him and hope for the best. i dun blog abt sad stuff anymore cos i am too xinfu now. ps. i love you!

loving you....

2008-07-27T21:04:00.005+08:00

what a boring day! last min project need to do and have not discuss on how to present. tml is the presention, hope it will go well! i miss my baby so muchie! he is doing his extra now in the danm camp. all selfish rats! lol have to finish blogging fast cos i need to call him! he has been calling me! this is the second time i blog cos i dunno y the hell it cant publish the first one. angry!~lol so soon we will be tgt for 1 mth. though is only 1 mth but he really treat me very nice! he give me all his love and care. protect me from harm, indeed a sensative guy which can provide me the secure tt i want! in only less than a mth, he write card and fold stars to me! made an affort to say 'i love you' to me every single day!~ so sweet!!!~~~lol showing off my lub here!!~ i am a xin fu nu ren now~! i got my mummy love and i love my mummy! i love my daddy too. i promise i will study hard and wun neglet my study although i am in a relationship. i wun forget my frens too..i love u all too k but is just tt i love my baby more..lol..thank god for giving a chance to study again, having my family and frens love and giving my the best bf, baby! i will be contented with what i have now and not to be greedy! i will cherish my family, frens and my beloved baby!

boring shit yo!!!

2008-07-17T20:47:00.004+08:00

sitting inside mac now, what a angry day! where is all my sim fren? thought they say wanna send link for project where the hell they are now? lol...i am the only stupid one tt go online and i call them but none pick up. forget it! what really pisses me off is the stupid bus, 980! i have to wait for 35 min for a bus. they really need to improve on their timing. maybe is my own problem too..my aunt visited me.. so sad..had lunch with rf today lol..she so good come fetch me la..thanks girl...lol then my baby say wanna see me blog in the end he playing his psp now. funny guy he is...but whatever la..his game more attractive! lol...now i am waitin for yiling to meet me. she gonna help me in my eng assignment but i dun feel like doing now lehz...lol lazy me..i should stop le la..my baby also not interested..still pretend say blogging seems fun...lol..sign off..i love you all my gfs...hee..meet up soon ya...

busy shit yo!!

2008-07-10T15:59:00.003+08:00

school started! A new beginning yeah! love all my friends so pls dun leave me k. i may be busy with school work, contact u all lesser but pls dun forget me. lol know a few new friends all is good hope tt we will be friends tt hang out too and not only classmate ya. i love studying there so good..now my focus is to study hard and save money. i want to buy gucci wallet and burberry bag..and hope tt iphone will be out soon. lucky tt one my mummy gonna but for me as my belated present..lol waiting! and i hope i can pass my tp oncce and for all...pls pls pls...i will be a good girl for 1 week if i pass..promise..lol...

great day

2008-05-26T00:46:00.003+08:00

well...finally meet up with part of my gf after coming back from my trip..lol..do miss them and had a great laugh after hearing their scene on Friday. i guess its a pity and lucky tt i didn't go..lol went to watch 'made of honour", a nice show. i enjoy a lot, is never bored to hang out with them. they made me laugh so hard which somehow stop me from reminding the past. oh and Singapore is really a small country cos i saw my fren at mrt. so happy but i feel bad cos i dun remember her name and i do not know what to do with her no. lol so now is gss but i do not have money to shop. so sad!~~~cant wait for the coming week..is our girls outing again!~~ yeah plan to go for steamboat and shopping at bugis. heard from my sis that there are new stuff there..hee should go light on the shopping cos my closet cant even store my clothe from Taiwan..opppssss!!~~~feel a bit sinful though. look at china and Myanmar, i cant help them but still keep spending money on those unnecessary thing? hmmm....seems that i need to control myself and learn to be bless with what i have. do not ask for more mean not to be greedy. must change to a better person!~~ hope the world will be better..

bored!~~

2008-05-24T01:42:00.003+08:00

omg....i am so bored!~~blame it on my eye. suppose to meet up with my gf and enjoying now. but now i am at home doing nth and decide to blog. nth fantastic showing on the tv and nth interest me on the net so this is my life now. rot at home and cant even find a fren to chat with me..sobsob..lonely and bored!!~~~~can anyone pls save me now.. really going crazy..maybe i should just go to bad and rest my eye cos there is nth i can do but i can get to sleep. if only u are by my side to comfort me everything will be diff. no no no!!~~~~~have to stop myself thinking of you..well tt all...end!!~~~bye and good nite..hope my fren enjoy their nite!~~~

helpless...

2008-05-23T01:11:00.003+08:00

y do i suddenly feel so helpless and lonely? deep down my heart i have been forcing myself to get over you and only cherish the beautiful memory u left for me but have i? numb is the only feeling left in my love for you. but i do feel sad when i knew that you even cut off the only indirect link i can with you. should i still understand what you are doing and still believes you? and am i trying to create so many reason just to made myself feel better? i do not know anymore! is time for me to set on a new life journey. i want to be happy and not depress all the time. have to get rid of my emotional in order to succeed in the goals. have to remind myself every single day. time is very important and i cant waste it anymore. no more day dreaming of prince charming have to relay on myself for a better future. i think i am tired of relationship, no harm taking a break for better day ahead. maybe i should say i am afraid getting hurt again although i know i may have hurt others but this is how the world goes. enough of the bad news...have i mention Sim accepted me? oh anyway i am delighted to share this good news with all of my frens. i think i accidentally burrow some luck from you guys..hee

i am back..

2008-05-21T18:09:00.003+08:00

halo!!~~~~~ i am back from Taiwan..lol. i was really pissed off b4 going to the airport. my camara not functioning, my nail chip and i cant find my shoe bla bla bla argh~~ what a good start..but managed not to blow my tenper if not the trip there will be spoil by me. when reached, the weather was not as what we expected. it was cold for the first 2 days but still managed to do my shopping. well i dun think i bought a lot of stuff but my mum and sis keep repeating tt i was trying to buy the whole taiwan back..lol..and i managed to buy things for u girls lol.. not last min thing ok. i think of u all even i was doing my shopping and try to hunt for all of ur gift! oh shopping there was killing my leg. guess i really have to admit tt i am old. i cant shop for the whole day like i used to anymore. the food there was bloody oily cant imagine that is their delicacies. some are still ok and the whole trip is ok i guess if not travelling with my mum fren it would be really fun. hope my sis upload pic soon so i can upload here.

cant wait to meet u girls on friday and sunday. hee..shall have fun with u girls again!

sick!!!~~~~~~~~~~

2008-05-12T01:40:00.003+08:00

omg....finally is my turn to get sick after consecutive of getting sick in between my group of frens.. who is the culprit? is no body else but rui fen you!! lol..feeling guilty already..? i am going taiwan soon, will sure miss all of you but i really cant wait to go there as well for my shopping haha..i will try to get things for you all( not sure whether i will have enough $$$ understand la hor). all of you pls dun get sick and lets meet up once i return! once i return i will continue my car lesson and try to get a job. need money to learn many stuff and for OUR travel plan. you guys need to jia you to save up too okay! but the most impt thing is i hope i can get to SIM to study. will study hard this time, dun wanna let my parents sad again. pls pls pls god!! so many things i wanna learn and do. am i being too greedy? *sign* oh!! ya!! i had a great day today! know all my frens care for me so much..loves you all lots lots.. must always be like tt ok! the main point is i had a great dinner with my mum sis and her bf! mother's day is today. had korean cuisine at far east. NICE!!~~ bbq meat and ginseng soup the kimchi the stonepot rice bla bla bla...too many to list but everything is NICE!!! EXCEPT the pork ribs..hee! too bad never took any pictures but is ok cos i love my mummy...is the thoughts tt count oh but i do feel bad i never pay for the meal cos of my ex boss la!! angry haven give me my pay..! *cry* shal takes lots of picture at taiwan and upload it to share with you all my trip!! bye bye need to rest early for faster recovering before leaving for taiwan..

do you still rem we once said to go together? i am fulfilled it now, although i am alone.

had a GREAT day..

2008-05-02T01:39:00.004+08:00

went out with reb and ruifen today to shop for a special fren birthday! my leg hurts to the limit, maybe it has been a long time since i wear heels and skirt. so *ouch* *ouch* *ouch*~~~~ but is worth it. and i had japanese food for my dinner at paragon, so yummy!! however, i am broke. is time to look for a part-time job if not i will die without having money to shop. hee...speaking of money it reminds me of my ex boss..keep lying about delaying my salary, cant take it anymore. had been bugging him since i quit during march and now is may already!! do i look like a dummy to him that i believes all his excuses. come on, i am not a kid that cant differentiate truth or lies. although am broke, still cant control and bought 2 tops at forever 21. guilty!! need to get my salary fast, still need to pay for online spree and hp bill! i must jia you to earn extra $$$$ too! haiz...life is getting tougher as growing older. so many things to vex about. hope i can get into sim! and this time i wun disappoint my mummy, gotta study hard if able to get in and hopefully get my degree! and of cos, i still misses ***! hope you are fine and happy. is been 5 mth since we clarify and 1 mth plus since we last met. do you still rem me? and yup i dun really want any reltionship now. had to work hard for my plan! jia you wor!! to *** as well!!~~~~

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